True Feelings

Oceanic Mystic
Aug 5, 2016
3 min read

Hey girls! Okay, this blog is for GIRLS only! If you're a guy and you read it, oh well. Anyway, as you can see this is a blog called "True Feelings" and it's about love.

I love playing matchmaker but I don't like to be in love.

A: I love reading romance stories.

B: Kisses makes me queasy and feel somewhat embarrass and nervous.

C: I don't want to be in love.

There is this guy in my school and he asked me if I like him. Of course I said, "No." Well, I asked his friend and he says that he has a crush on me. I was surprise! I don't even like him that way, just like him as a friend. We don't even talk to each other much. Just rarely. I try to avoid him but I always end up almost bumping into him!

Then another friend of mine told me that one of my friends has a crush on me. I mean he's like one of the bad boys of the my grade! Then, another friend of mine told me that one of my friends has a crush on me too! I have like three boys crushing on me, well I don't know about the first one, because he had a girlfriend and is currently single, I think. Omg! Because I'm good friends with the bad boy and the other guy, but I don't know. I'm not going to say their real names, so I'm just going to name them:

First Guy: 1G

Seond Guys (the bad boy): 2G

Third Guy: 3G

Yeah, I know, G stands for "Guy" and then they are numbered. Anyway, I just have a complicated life at school.

I mean 1G is nice, friendly, funny, sporty, and is cool. He is like a "jock" and one of the "populars." He makes me laugh and smile, but I don't like in a "bf and gf" way, just a friend way. 2G is friendly, nice, and is a bad boy, for getting into trouble a lot. We've been partners many times and we're totally cool, I guess. My friend, who is also a bad boy, told me that 2G has a crush on me. I was like "Okay.." but in my head I was like "Seriously! He does?!" And then when my annoying friend told me that 3G has a crush on me since last grade, I was like "He does?" I always kicked him playfully and lightly, and now, whenever I kicked him playfully and lightly, he always catch my leg and I jumped up and down saying, "Let my leg go!" playfully. 3G is like 1G too. 1G, 2G, and 3G are all friends and know each other.

PLEASE HELP ME!

Okay, I have to admit it to you guys! I think I like 1G, 2G, and 3G more than I thought. I mean not a lot to fully love them, but I think I like them. I'm good friends with 2G and 3G, but I don't want to be in love. My friends are in a relationship and I see them get hurt when they break up, I support them and if I'm in love, I'm afraid of hurting them or they hurting me. I'm good friends, but I don't know if I'm ready for love. 2G has a girlfriend, he admitted it and we were talking with friends. My feelings of love are really complicated. I like them as a friend, but then I like than more than I thought, and repeat! Ugh... You know what. I guess I'm going to just be friends with them. I mean, why would they like me? Wait, that will be probably answered in another blog of mine.

1G, 2G, and 3G are totally nice to me and I appreciate that. It makes me sad when I even think of them. Ugh! I'm just going to think that my feelings are even real. I need help. I don't want to be in love... (sighs). I'm just gonna act to them like I do to my friends and everyone at school. Be nice, cheerful, positive, and caring. They are my friends, even if I don't know them that much, but I don't don't want to be in a relationship. I don't want to hurt their feelings. I'll just be careful around them. That's all.

I even had a little crush on a guy in a different grade. He's older than me by one or two years. I got over it, because I just met him, so yeah, not anymore.